Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Truth is

Written by Shannon Leigh

I am weary

Our child doesn't sleep.
I am loosing my mind.

He confuses the crap out of me.
He is just so inconsistent.

You see, there was a short snippet of time when he did sleep.
Oh glory.

In fact I think that's what I told you all in my last post (long ago).
He was sleeping from 8pm to 6am…
I was hoping that it wasn't a fluke.
Boy was it ever.

That lasted a whopping week.
And then it has gotten progressively worse.
I am so tired.
I am aging at a certain rapid rate.

To be fair, Max is a rockstar napper.
He takes 2 solid 2 + hour naps in his crib everyday.
He is generally happy and sweet during the day.
He is a great eater (still nursing and eating solids too).

But at night?
He tuns into a demon child with a serious temper (I kid- sort of).

Up until this point we have given him the benefit of the doubt.
Maybe he really is hungry?
(We have started supplementing frozen breast milk after each meal just be sure he's getting enough)
Maybe his teeth hurt?
(Tylenol/ibprofen/teething tablets)
Maybe he has gas?
Maybe he is in a growth spurt?
Maybe he just needs to be a little bit older?

We've tried to feed (stuff) him before we go to bed at 11pm.
We wake him up after he goes to bed at 7 and we fill him up and put him right back down.
He still wakes up 3 to 4 hours later screaming/completely inconsolable.

We've tuned off the monitor and let him "cry it out." 
He cries for HOURS.
He doesn't stop.
And when he does stop, he starts back up 20 minutes later.

Trying to intervene with paci-plugging just makes him irrate.
We've tried it all.
But enough is enough.

I think he has a temper and get's ticked when he wakes up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep.
I do believe this is a classic battle of wills.

My dear precious boy… mommy's will is stronger.

Bootcamp starts tonight.


I apologize if this is incoherent.
I'm tired.


Anonymous said...

Alex had them same thing when he was about that age, turned out he had a hernia! hang in there, praying for you Shannon ... love to you, Matt and your cuties!! aunt krissy

Anonymous said...

Sorry for barging in - but I hope you did find some sleep the last days. First of all: I love your pictures. They are in the best of taste, with a sure taste for style.

The second thing is: I know that it can be truly hard to live without sleep (not for nothing is deprivation of sleep a torture method). But hang on in, it will get better. He seems to try finding his place in this world and that's hard for all of you. Maybe you find someone to take him out for an hour or two and you can have a little nap (or falling into coma...).

I wish you all the best and will be looking forward for more adorable pictures.

With best wishes from over the Atlantic (Germany)